Full Circle

I’m having a mind explosion right now. I’m a part of a Facebook group who’s is led by a medium. Earlier this evening I thought “hmm I wonder if I could reach out to her.” So, I messaged her. At first, I thought for sure I wouldn’t hear back from her but then I thought no, don’t think like that.

 

She messaged me back and I asked her if she perhaps tell me why I have this cancer. She asked the kind. And then a weird series of questions. I wasn’t sure where she was going with it then she said you’re at a stage 3 and at stage 4 you’re essentially go through a transformation. Which I just went to stage 4 I told her.

 

Then she messaged saying “that’s your problem.  You have the cancer so you can slow down and not have to make everyone happy. It’s their job to make themselves happy. You got this so now you have to rely on other people and not the opposite way. And that’s something that would make you very uncomfortable. Asking for help.”

 

This made so much sense to me. She said I have to address the abandonment/self worth issues to stop doing this. Which got me thinking about my childhood and how interesting it is that my life theme was being or feeling abandoned by people but now I’m so blessed to have a whole community coming together for me.

 

So, abandonment created low self-worth issues which led to excessive people pleasing which leads to cancer.

 

Which could also mean that abandonment to more than enough people loving me is my life lesson?! Does that make sense? All of you coming together for me know is filling the void of the people who left me. That’s amazing. Just boom, mind blown.

 

It’s hard to even process this right now. It’s really making my eyes open to God and his amazing work with us here on earth. So brilliant.

 

Wow. Life is crazy. God is a master designer and it was constructed just as it was meant to. And all of you are showing me just how loved I am. Even those of you helping that I don’t know. You only know someone who I love very much and they love  therefore you love me, too! Beautiful.

 

I love when things come full circle but this is the most amazing one ever. The best part is the sense of euphoria that comes with the realization. I could spend forever chasing that feeling. It assures me I’m on the right path.

 

I wrote this last night. I woke up around 5am and couldn't sleep so for about an hour I thought about this life coming full circle and what psychic Kelli said to me. So I closed my eyes and tried to talk to my body and cancer. I said, “look how loved you are. All these people coming to help you. Cancer your intent was to HELP me, not hurt me. But with good intentions you ended up doing the opposite.” Over and over I again I talked to my self and cancer (silently) and realized we both just want to be loved.” I apologized for creating a bad environment where it felt it needed to do this to save me in such an intense way.

 

I fell asleep and slept so peacefully I actually woke feeling like my body was buzzing/charging?? And most of you don’t know but I threw my back out on Sunday and have been almost unable to move. I woke up with no back pain and can move fine. And the first thing that popped up on my time line when I clicked Facebook was my “horoscope” that I’ll try to attach to this post. It says, “trust the power of love! It is love that helps you heal your emotional wounds and the fears deeply buried in your subconscious in order to regain your peace of mind and the joy of life. Open your soul to love! Let it come to you!"

 

Guys, win, lose, or draw here… God has a plan for me and he’s so good! Might even have a sense of humor! Just wow!